Current mood:

numb

Another sleepless night. I can not sleep. I can not eat. I'm crying so much that my face is sore. I need a hug so bad right now I can't even express it. A real hug . Why don't I have ANYBODY to talk to??
Nobody's online and i need to talk to somebody, not later, now.
I feel like I'm nothing. Like I'm just some stupid pawn in a game.
As I type, I find Myself continuously pressing the backspace key. The things I want to write, the things I feel, I don't want people to read. I don't want people to be worried about me or anything. I cant express myself. I'm just soooooooooo alone!!! I don't know what to do!!!

My whole world is falling apart and i just have to sit here and watch.


"In the blink of an eye, I watch as my soul dies. In only a moment, my heart is shattered to nothing. I have lost everything I am and ever will be forever. Guilt and anguish consume me. I could never make this feeling leave. Tears now my only words. As silence fills the room. I have lost everything I am and ever will be forever. I have lost everything."